Ugly fat girl

Well I started this job three weeks ago and its not so bad but I hate back to back calls. Sick of it. Its not sales but none the less, not the greatest. A former coworker of mine works down the street at a pretty nice company (no names!) and was recently promoted. I applied at this company 2 months ago but didn't get the job even though I thought the interview went pretty well. I believe it was because of my lack of experience in that field (or so I tell myself to ease the pain). Anyways, this coworker called me up last week to tell me that a position opened up but it would be a stinky schedule at first. He said I just need to get my foot in the door and that I would be able to change schedules soon. So I told him that I wanted the position (pay raise!) SUPPOSEDLY its a done deal and I "have the job" but I am STILL WAITING for them to call. They wanna make me sweat or something. I feel like the fat ugly girl waiting for the boy I like (this company) to call me! hahahaha! But seriously, come on already!!! My friend reassures me he was told I have the job but this man is out of the office sick and thats why I have not been called in yet. (gee thanks for getting sick on me!) This is frustrating! I already have to wait 7 more weeks to find out the sex of the baby and I have to wait for something else?!

In other news, Rigo started his PT job this week. I feel bad that hes working two jobs but he wanted to do it. He doesn't get to go to bed til midnight and has to be back up at 7am to go his day job! This PT job will bring in an extra $800/mo so thats nice. We want to pay off everything (damn best buy card! take back ur big screen & GPS!) and go crazy buying baby stuff. Rigo already told me that with his first check he wants to buy a crib. My parents said they will buy us one but Rigo saw a crazy $400 crib at Babies-R-Us he wants. The $180 one I saw at Wal-Mart will do just fine thank you very much! I happy because Rigo seems to be more excited about the baby. At first I felt like he didn't really believe it until we actually saw the baby. This weekend he got a little jealous I went baby shopping with my friend Shae. "But I wanted to pick out onesies too!" :P So we went shopping again :) We did great actually. Spent $45 and got a butt load of stuff.

Speaking of our growing demon child, I had a mental break down today and called Rigo at work crying because I'm cool like that. I'm tired as to be expected but because of this nerve (blood clot!) problem I am having trouble sleeping. So no sleep plus already being tired equals feeling like death. There was a moment I felt like I was going to colapse today and just wanted to dig a hole and crawl into it. I called the doctor and left a message that I need help because I felt like I was dying and that this freaking physical theraphy only helps relieve the pain during the day but I can't sleep at night. So this nurse bitch calls me back and she basically tells me to sleep in a recliner. Um ok are you doing to buy me one?! I can't sleep sitting up you wench! Shes on the hit list offically. Wheres that sniper when you need him?!

SNIPER!

Ok I've seen more police activity in the past week and a half than ever before! They blame it on the warm weather but I've never remembered anything this crazy. Yesterday, downtown, a sniper tried to shoot a police officer in broad daylight! God only knows why. Of course I would just happen to be driving downtown about 10 mins after this happened! Once again I think half the police force was in on this thing. The sniper tried to shoot the office in the chest but the bullet hit his microphone (the thing was only 2 inches by 2 inches big!) and so he didn't get injured. (I'm sure he lost a good pair of underwear that day if you know what I mean....) but whats going on people?!!? Wichita is suppose to be the boring place to live! We need excitement here but not this kind!

Oh no he didn't!!!

Ok can anyone spot whats wrong with this conversation?

Me:I'm soooo tired (makes face)
Rigo: Why are YOU tired? You didn't DO anything today.
Me: (wtf?!) Um HELLO, growing a PERSON here!

Does anyone else spot the error or is it just me?!?!?!!?

Physical Therapy

Ok should this concern a person when you see this at your physical therapist's office?! I mean what IS IT exactly??

$7!

Yesterday I decided I wanted to go Garage Sell shopping since I like the finer things in life. Rigo kept trying to convince me that garage sells only happen on Thursdays. I kept telling him that most people WORK on Thursdays and that they advertise garage sells for Fri/Sat/Sun.

My friend Shae got a boat load of cute baby stuff for her baby for so cheap. Why spend $80 on stuff that the baby can only wear for 3 months max and is going to puke and poo all over?! Well much to my disapointment after going to two houses that advertised they would be open this Saturday, they weren't! My mom then called me to tell me she saw this new 2nd hand shop called Kid's Kloset that just opened up and she saw some cute stuff outside the shop. I had Rigo take me and when we pulled up I saw this cute Winnie the Pooh bassinet outside. I looked at the price, $7! It was kinda dirty but HELLOOOO $7!! We went inside and they only had one rack of baby stuff since they had just opened the day before but the lady assured me she'd be getting a lot of stuff so and to come back. I talked Rigo into buying me the Bassinet. "But its DIRTY!" (Hi ever hear of BLEACH and a washing machine?!?) After a very fun time of trying to shove this thing into the back of our Jeep we have our first real baby item! Yaaaaaay! When we came back to the house my dad was like "I told you we were going to buy you that!!!" He doesn't know there is a difference between a bassinet and a crib and that he is still buying me the latter :)

I spent yesterday bleaching the bassinet and washing the bedding. It looks new! The mobile is missing but you can buy those cheap. Not bad for something that usually costs $70! The baby can only sleep in it for a few months so why spend so much?!

"Which one is Joann?"

So I dragged Rigo into Joann fabrics yesterday because I was in baby shopping mode and wanted to make a baby blanket. I originally wanted to go to this knitting shop and get a how-to book and knit the baby a blanket but the place closed at 4pm and I was hungry so that was a no go. Food comes first now! (Speaking of which I think this kid is going to be a hefer because now the instant I get hungry, if I don't eat immediately this kid gets seriously pissed and my stomach hurts like a bitch!) Anyways, after we went to eat I told Rigo I wanted to go to Joann fabrics. I spent about 15 minutes picking out fabric for the blanket which in Rigo time translates into 3 hours. (Who cares if the stupid KU game came on in an hour?! They won so woo-hoo for him)

After I picked out the fabric I decided to look for material to reupholster the rocking chair with. My mom has this old rocking chair that she used with me and said we could fix it up and I could have it. Its already been sanded down so I need to pick out some stain and just the material for the cushions. I asked for Rigo's help and he kept picking out material with skulls and paisley. (Yeah time to shop with mom) so I ditched the rocking chair idea for yesterday (I will take before and after photos to show my creative genius!) and we went to check out. This is our conversation at the check out line

Rigo:So which one is Joann?
Me: What??
Rigo: This is Joann's Fabrics so which lady is Joann?
Me: *shakes head*

I finally finished the blanket this morning but not without obstacles!



MATERIAL



LITTLE HELPER #1



NOT SO LITTLE HELPER #2

Don't worry this thing is getting washed!!

You know you live in the Barrio when..... (part two!)

Your street is blocked off by 4 cop cars and the next block over there is about FIFTEEN cop cars and vans and a camera man. Okay seriously, whats happening to the North Side people?!

My mom was about to leave to the store and she saw the cops walking up and down the street. She stopped one to ask what was going on because she was about to leave for the store. He told her stay put for awhile because they were about to do a S.W.A.T raid on someone about 5 doors down. Sweet.

Speaking of crime, I read two things in the paper yesterday that disturbed me. One, some idiot teenagers jumped the easter bunny (seriously?!) and made off with his head.

Two, this 40 year old guy in a wheel chair was attacked by two guys with a BASEBALL BAT! The cops said that the attackers made off with over $1000 in cash. Ok who rolls around with a G in their pocket DOWNTOWN?!?!? Has this man never heard of a checking account?!? Instant cash with your debit card! God knows that gets me into trouble constantly but theres no need to carry that much cash.... So I have come to the conclusion that those two men were only trying to beat some sense into the man.

You know you live in the Barrio when.....

You are at 21st & Arkansas stopped by a red light and you see the end of a police pursuit! The dude gets blocked in by the car in front of him because of the stop light. Two cop cars come to a stop and two cops run out. One goes to the passenger side and draws his gun and the other goes to the driver side and brakes out the guy's window and reaches in to grab the guy's keys, then drags the dude out the window!

Funny thing is that it was actually a white guy! Hahahahahhahaha. Did he really think he could hide among the sea of brown people?! Who knows. He looked drunk or extremely red for some reason.

Speaking of the wonderful WPD, Monday morning I woke up to find that the WPD had broken into my car to leave me a flyer about (drum roll please!) CAR BREAK INS! Um gee thanks guys! I walked out to my car wondering if I had remember to lock my car the night before. I see my alarm flashing so I realize that I did. I get into my car and see this flyer! Um WTF?! Car is locked, alarm is on, windows are rolled up. My conclusion is that they must have been nice enough to lock my car after breaking in. Once again, thanks guys! Happily they didn't steal my GPS or the $10 I had in the console. My mom swears she locked her car like she "always does" and was freaked out. My dad thinks they tapped our cars. *sigh*

YESSSSSS!

Internet is working again!! Sweet :)

How Max became an Esparza

Speaking of adopting....I decided to share the story of Max! :) Rigo and I had been talking about getting a dog since we were moving out of our apartment and into a duplex (with a backyard! yay!)

The week before The Wichita Eagle did a story on the humane society & how they were overflowing with dogs to be adopted. Well on my day off Rigo told me to go LOOK only :) I went in and saw all these dogs & puppies with wagging tails and then I saw Max. He was just sitting there & looked so depressed. He gave me the "take me home" eyes. He broke my heart so I asked to spend some time with him and he turned out to be a very sweet, playful (and VERY HYPER!) dog. His previous owner took him to the shelter because she couldn't spend any time with him. I thought it was a sign because the day he was brought to the shelter was the day our old apartment got broken into a few weeks before (bastards!you got my laptop but it doesn't work! hahahaha jokes on you!)

When Rigo got home I told him I put a dog on hold at the shelter. (oops!) You can place a dog on hold for $20. You have 24hours to come back to adopt the dog. If you don't, the $20 becomes a donation and the dog (or cat) goes up for adoption again by anyone. If you adopt, the $20 goes towards your adoption fee. I showed Rigo Max's picture online at the shelter's website. (www.kshumane.org) He said Max wasn't cute *gasp!* and said he didn't want a cocker spaniel. Well I told him that I just wanted him to see Max and that if he didn't like him then we didn't have to get him. (yeah right, he was already mine!)

We went up to the shelter after work and if you want to spend time with a dog to see how you match they put you in a private room. Well Max (who I've learned since then is very intelligent) must have known he had me at first glace and now had to win over Rigo. He immediately ran to Rigo (ignoring me) and was so happy to see him and pee'd on the floor. (Cocker spaniels tend to do that when excited) Rigo caved and said yes. I actually think Max prefers Rigo over me. (Odd, yes I know)

At the Humane's Society most dogs are $130 to adopt. They also have dogs priced for $65 in the Lonely Hearts Club. Those animals are harder to adopt based on age or medical problems. We got Max at the Lonely Hearts discount because he has to be on a special diet and has allergies. Hes actually not high maintenance at all.

Max was an owner surrender, not a stray. His owner had to give him up because she felt bad for always having him crated up. I guess she traveled a lot. But she took great care of him. She gave the name of the vet she took him to to the shelter and when I called to make an appointment they knew him by name! I learned her name and where she lived (I'm not a stalker I swear!) Fast forward a few months, I am working at Shea Vision and one day I notice that this woman named Karen is scheduled for an exam next week. OMG! Thats Max's old mom (lol!) I was excited to meet her. (You would think I adopted this child and I am meeting the birth mother) Sadly she had to reschedule and I had to wait two more weeks to meet her. When she came in I said "This may be kind of a weird question, but did you use to have a dog named Max?" She said "Yes! Do you have my puppy?!" She was so relieved to hear someone took him in. She actually knew he was adopted because a friend of hers works at the vet and called to tell her someone was bringing him in for a Wellness Exam. She told me how so felt awful for leaving him home alone and decided it would be best if some gave him up to someone who could spend more time with him. She told me she cried all the way home after dropping him off. Max was at the shelter 3 weeks before we adopted him.

The first day we got him, Rigo and I took him to this nature center on the east side and took him for a walk. He was so excited to be out and about. But for the longest time when we would walk him, he would turn around and stare at us, then continue to walk. It was like he was checking to make sure we weren't going anywhere. *tear!* We've had him now for 5 months almost. I spent $30 on a dog bed he never used. He prefers to sleep with us. If we actually get him off the bed, he sneaks back in and is always with us when we wake up. (He kicks!) He loves to eat Rigo's socks (no idea....) and also likes to stick his head in my purse and eat/chew on whatever he can find. (money, mascara, debit card....) Rigo taught him to sit and lay down in one day. Also, if he wants to go out, he brings his leash to you (so adorable).... (gee I wonder if I will talk this much about my kid-ha!)

This is rather long but the whole experience of adopting Max has been far better than I could have imagined. I never understand why someone would want to adopt an adult dog. I didn't think I could bond with a dog that I hadn't had as a puppy. But I was so wrong! On the plus side, you don't have to deal with potty training/crying. Major bonus.

We had Max about a week and my mom (who probably has newspapers from 1982) noticed the paper last week sitting on the coffee table about the Humane's Society. She looked at the front page... "Omg thats Max!" He was on the front page and I didn't even notice!



"TOO CUTE, TOO MANY BEGGING FOR HOMES" (title of article)
"Appearing confused and afraid, a dog gives his keepers a mournful look through a kennel wall at Kansas Humane Society. 43 staff members and a pool of 250 volunteers keep the overburdened animal shelter running" (photo caption)



Living the life!

"Its trying to swim away!"

Okay day 897 of the leg numbness. It is now affecting both legs. I feel like I've walked for hours today. Need massage. And seriously, I can feel a BUMP on my left leg. The clot is there I am telling you!

Nothing too exciting to report. Friday I actually talked Rigo into going to Red Lobster. Rigo would be happy if he never ate anything ever again except lasagna, hamburger helper, pizza, and chicken fingers. He does not like to step outside the box. I've got him to try "exotic" foods like Ramen Noodles since we've been married! Progress I know!

So he decided to get steak and a lobster tail because he wanted to try it. Ever since I've been pregnant I've been wanting Crab Legs so thats what I got (yummy!) Our food gets to the table and Rigo looks at this creature on his plate horrified. "This is really creeping me out!" (hes so sheltered) He finally decides to taste it (after making me taste it first) and when he goes to cut it, it moves. Which causes another panic attack "its trying to swim away!" So to make the experience more enjoyable I decide to show him how the crab legs still have functioning parts! "Look the claws still work!" Hahahhahahahaha. Fun.

In other news, our doberman had puppies 2/19/08. (forget to mention that!) One is having a hard time. We think she may be disabled. She has a had time latching on to nurse so we have to keep her inside and bottle feed her every 2 hours. We also bring the mother in so she can get to nurse alone without competition from the other puppies. We say we think shes disabled because she can't seem to control her head. Yes she is a puppy, but it seems like twitching at times. One of her eyes seems to be a little off as well. She is doing better though, we were worried she wouldn't make it two days ago. But nursing alone is doing wonders for her. We plan on taking her to the vet to see if anything is wrong with her. Hopefully if there is, we don't have to put her down. I've always loved animals but since we adopted Max from the Humane's Society I am pro-adoption/rescue! I know there are no kill rescue groups out there that specialize in finding homes for disabled dogs with good owners. So if it comes down to it, thats the road I want to take.

I recently saw a car with a bumper sticker that said "Don't Shop, Adopt!" and I wanted one sooo bad that I googled it :) I found this site with a bunch of cute bumper stickers and t-shirts. I think I will also get the bumper sticker that says "Neuter Vick!" :)

You should too....

http://www.cafepress.com/buy/dog+rescue

ALSO, we've been thinking of getting a Daushund...I saw a t-shirt that had a Daushund on it and said "I trip over my weiner" hahahahahahahaha definately have to get one now!

Stolen!

Stole this quote from someone's myspace:

Stress: The confusion created when the mind must override the body's basic desire to choke the living shit out of some asshole who desperately deserves it!

Well said :)

Update!

So the doctor's office finally called me back. I seriously don't think these girls know what the hell they are talking about. They told me that THE BABY was sitting on my nerve which is why my leg was going numb. Oooooookay. I read online that when you are about 6 months pregnant the baby can lay on your nerves and cause back pain that shoots down the BACK of your leg. Okay nurse lady, explain to me HOW this kid, who is no larger than my pinky toe, is lying on a nerve ABOVE MY KNEE?!

Would you like to use a life line?!?!?!?

NO?!?!?!??!!?

They referred me to a physical therapist!! I called and they said it would be MID APRIL before I could get in. They also told me that they only have day appointments thru out the week so I would have to miss work. Thankfully the doctor said this "nerve" thing wouldn't hurt the baby and that it would just be uncomfortable for me. So with that being said I will just have to deal with my leg going numb (hopefully not while I'm on any stairs!) because I am not missing work to spend $5000 on physical therapy so I can bounce on yoga balls and do water aerobics!

Hell no!

Easy money

Must read article!

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/23490612/

Why can't I get 4Gs for my leg clot?!

Is B for Banana??

Ok I am having a freak out attack! For two weeks my left thigh has been burning. You know the feeling you have of heat radiating out of your body when you have a fever? Thats how my thigh has been feeling for two weeks. Its not so much painful, just uncomfortable. The only way to describe it is BURNING. Then this week I started getting a jabbing pain in the same spot. I didn't really think much of it. I just though the baby was slowing taking over and that it was normal. No biggie right? Well right now we were laying down watching tv and I sat up and COULD NOT FEEL my thigh. I know that may not sound like a big deal but it scared the crap out of me. Thats never happened to me before. It felt like I had been given a shot to numb it. It felt exactly like when you are given a shot to numb the area at the dentist. I had to KNEAD my leg to get the feeling back. I called the doctor's office and left a message for them to call me back asap in the morning. I did some googling and I read that I either A.) Need to eat Bananas, or B.) Have a blood clot. Great! Its some sort of disorder with 3 initials because no one can say the damn thing. Ahhhhh. I am going to have to get my leg amputated.

**deep breath**

On a lighter note, Rigo is looking for a PT job nights because we are trying to save up cash. (Damn leg amputation surgery) Anyways, the airport's UPS is hiring. We drove out west to go to the airport. There is a winding ramp that takes you off the highway directly into the road that leads to the airport. So were getting off the ramp and drove for about 15 seconds when Rigo notices those magical flashing lights behind us. Crap! Were we speeding?! The cop comes up to the window...

Rigo: Hello, um, were we speeding?
Cop: Do you know what the speed limit here is?
Rigo: No
Cop: 40
Rigo: How fast were we going?
Cop: 59
Me: (fuck! can't pay for leg amputation surgery now because of $8000 ticket)

Well the cop seems like a nice guy. (I mean c'mon, whats wrong with two brown people rushing into the airport going 20 miles over the speed limit?!) He asked Rigo if he was dropping me off for a flight. He said no, he was applying for a job. He took his license and came back. He said he wasn't going to give us a ticket but that we needed to get the wind shield fixed. (Long story, don't ask, you should be worried about my leg)

Well we finally make it to UPS. We get sent into this little office where Rigo is given an application. Its us, a UPS employee, and a new hire. Were at the table next to them while he is giving her all her employee paperwork.... I overheard this conversation

UPS dude: ...We have a lot of equipment that could possibly kill you and this waiver here just states that you are aware of that (no lie, his words exactly)
New hire: *giggles*

NOTE TO SELF: Get life insurance on husband!

Happy Birthday Alex

I also forgot to mention that yesterday was my friend's birthday. For those of you who don't know, Alex was killed last year over seas. He was in the army. He would have been 22 yesterday. So tonight pray for Alex and all those fighting this stupid war. Rest in peace buddy.

Double wide! (No its not the pregnant girl!)

So as you know, Rigo and I are looking for houses. Now let me start out by saying that I could never be a pizza delivery driver since I don't know Wichita like the back of my hand but I have a pretty good idea of where everything is or how to find it at least. My husband sadly does not possess this skill. He has no sense of direction. He saw a listing online for a house on west Marie street. Here is our evening...

Rigo: Have you ever heard of Marie St?
Me: No, but it says west Marie so I assume its on the west side (stupid me)
Rigo: Well lets go see it, it looked really nice online and its cheap. There must be something wrong with it. (Typing address into GPS-gotta love the Garmin!)
***driving***
Me: This is far, I don't know if I want to go see this house. Its taking us far west near the zoo.
Rigo: Lets just go see it! I wanna see it! I wanna see it!
Me: Fine.
***driving***
Me: Ok the GPS is telling us to get on the highway and go south. I definitely don't want this house. Lets just go home this is a waste of time.
Rigo: I wanna see it! I wanna see it!
Garmin GPS: Drive 5.2 miles on South I-235.
Me: What the fuck?! 5 miles?! Rigo theres nothing out that far south in Wichita except trashy people and mobile homes! (sorry to my south Wichitians)
Rigo: (laughing) its not a mobile home!
Me: (laughing but half serious) I'm gonna kick your ass if I waste half a tank of gas to see a damn trailer. I'm serious I will leave you there! (Jeep is a V8. Translation- $80 gives me a 1/25 tank of gas)
Rigo: I wish the realtor would have called me back so we could see inside.
***driving***
Phone rings....Rigo answers, its the realtor calling.
Rigo: (talking to realtor) Yes, we are driving out there now to see it. What? Oh... (has funny grin on face) its a mobile home? (we are two blocks from the damn house!!)
Me: (seriously considering hitting my husband on the head with the GPS and leaving him in the prairie field across the street from mobile home park...seriously...then remembered watching The First 48 earlier and decided against it)

So what the hell we are there, we stop and look at this damn trailer. I do admit though that behind the crazy mobile home park this DOUBLE WIDE (I'm high class, only the best for me!! haha!) was fairly nice. I never would have known it was a freaking trailer to begin with.

In conclusion, I am accepting Quik Trip gas gift cards and second, house hunt without your directionally challenged spouse.

Moving on, I started my new job today. I woke this morning and didn't want to go. Even though I have been bored out of my mind the past couple weeks being a bum. But I actually like it! I think it will be a good fit. Seems like a great company. I work for a sports company (which if you know me is kinda funny) but I learned loads today. Mainly we deal with golf and baseball. I learned a lot of cool new golf words today so I can stump even more people with my never ending knowledge :) haha!

And finally, the wonderful people at Saint Francis hospital sent me a statement from my recent ER visit. Since I'm pregnant every hiccup now becomes life threatening (hey remember that mold?!) and I went to the ER last week.

"Thank you for choosing Saint Francis for your health care needs.... the following summary of charges is supplied for your review..."

LABS: $237 (pee'd in a cup)
ULTRASOUND: $1,106
ER:$706 TOTAL: $2,049

NOT PASSING OUT WHEN YOU RECEIVE BILL: Priceless. Now only if I had a damn Mastercard to pay for the rest of this shit!

I'm sorry but $1,100 for a damn sonogram?! Who do these people think they are? For $1,100 you better be able to tell me the sex of my baby, the college he will be attending, and if hes going to marry some skank I will despise til old age!!

Ahhh!

My hair gets cut off with a knife, and my baby is carried off by a chihuahua.

The weather warmed up for the first time this weekend. Took Max for a walk twice.

I was suppose to start my new job this week but Monday morning I got a crappy case of the flu. I threw up and had a fever. Not fun. Thankfully it only lasted 24 hours oddly and there is a new training class starting tomorrow so I didn't miss anything at work.

Recently we started looking for a house. My dad is selling a property he "flipped" and once that money comes in he is giving us a down payment for our first home :)
We fell in love (or should I say I did) with this house in the riverside area. Were looking for a fixer upper since my dad is an experienced "flipper" (you gotta watch Flip This House, its addicting) anyways, the house is worth over $100,000 and its being sold for $49,000. BUT its got some SERIOUS mold issues downstairs! Like new species serious. Mysteriously after I went down there, the next day I got my 24 hour flu and no one else did. Hopefully my baby won't come out with 4 heads from some crazy new mold spores that are immune to everything!

Speaking of the baby, I've been having a lot of baby dreams. I had a crazy one last night. I dreamed I had the baby and it didn't hurt AT ALL (sweet!). My husband and his crazy friend Cholo were in the delivery room. The doctor said "Its a boy!" and I could hear the nurses talking about him. Saying "hes this...." "hes that...." TWO HOURS after I had the baby I was on the way home. We were driving in the car and I turn around to my son and think "Why did the doctor dress him in a pink outfit?!" So we pull over and change the baby's diaper to discover our baby magically turned into a girl! I named her Isabella Grace in the dream. Next thing I know, we are at a house I've never seen before. We take the baby inside and then I go back outside to get something. When I go back into the house my husband is yelling at me asking me where I have been. I look at him like hes crazy and he tells me that I've been gone for 6 months and that I've abandoned him and the baby. I look at the baby and shes grown! Then his friend grabs me and cuts my hair off because hes mad I left the baby!

Yes I promise I am not drinking or taking any drugs. (Maybe its that damn mold!)

I keep having dreams where we buy a lot of boy stuff or that we're told the baby is a boy then I have it and its a girl. My husband's family wants a boy because they don't have a grandson yet. The pressure is on to carry on the family name! I don't care either way but I would like a boy also. I also keep having dreams where I keep forgetting the baby. I had a dream I went out to my Jeep and was about to leave when I remembered I left the baby in the carseat in the living room. I went back inside to see my mom's chihuahua Oscar carrying off my kid! Lol... (this dream was before the mold incident so I can't explain it)

As I said earlier, tomorrow I start my new job. I'm half way excited. I need money and am getting bored of being a home BUT I hate going thru training. I don't like not knowing what I am doing. My husband is also applying for a PT position he saw today in the paper. We want to pay off all the little things we have so we can be prepared to buy a house. I found out my credit is quite disturbing. My score is between "HAHAHAHAHAHAHA YOU want a loan?!" and "Um ma'am, the only way you're getting a house is if you sell an organ." What pisses me off is that I have two things in collections, ONE of which is for $25 and I never got a bill for it!!! I made one late payment to my credit card, and one towards my Jeep. Other than that I have a good record! My previous car loan & other loans show I NEVER made a late payment! Someone needs to be hurt for this....